ugh i just sat down and thought “i’m going to be a senior” and burst into tears

ugh i hate it when i feel like im not fucking good at anything like sometimes i think im pretty good at singing and then im like lol jk no i fucking suck im basically the most irrelevant person in my choir and then i think im pretty smart and then i take tests and people ask me questions and im like wtf is goin on ahHH why the fuck do i even try i suck at everything what the hell am i going to do with my life dfghyjukiytjuygtr

isnt it heart breaking, dedicating your life to destroying yourself

i

have

no

one

ugh why do people post pictures on instagram and facebook showcasing their “mental illnesses”???  why do people romanticize depression and self harm? do they think they’re unique and special? because its not fucking funny. i’m so tired of people posting pictures of their “scars” or captioning their photos with cliche sayings like “behind this smile is a depressed teen” like what the fuck. it’s taken me 3 years to finally open up to anyone about my mental instability and even until today i still have a problem discussing my feelings or responding to questions about the scars all over my body.  and all these people go around acting like being depressed is “cool”. these people advertise their “illness” as if its just a temporary mood when its NOT. its a serious condition that people struggle through each day and it fucking hurts when people take it as a joke

omg ~a fake smile hides a million tears~ more like shut the fuck up

hmmm its been a while since i’ve had a crush on a girl